a message to chee woon

this entry would be pure rants abt him

to chee woon AkA ex-buddy

finally found out that ya got a blog... wow interesting i wonder wad you would be writing in it ...hmm let me guess how patethic you are and how the world is against you .. and how you are little mister misunderstood... pls la ... you aint that great and pure , all i see in you is pure dirt... gosh can a person get so low... and that word is just an understatment..

i cant believe that you yourself don get wad you did wrong ... and i expected you to find out and just tell me that you were sorry ... but that i knoe would never happen .. cause that is just so above you rite..!! and in most of your entry you are sayin that you will not change ... and that we should accept the way you are or just get lost / move away.... if you cant get where i am going this is one of the many reasons you are always left alone....

and don protray yourself as the person who is always hurt ... in the act of making your other frens happy .... gosh please who are you kidding ... tryin to earn sympathy from your peers .. the part which i cant comprehend is the fact that you don get wad you did and have no idea wad you did wrong ...

a thing that you did that i will never forgive is the fact that when i sent ya a sms askin if ya have studied you replied in a way that was just pure painful... you replied sayin are you reassuring yourself or is this genuine concern .... it might have been nothing to you but do you knoe that statement hurt me alot ... wad ever gave you the thought that i am going to step on your head and rise to the top .... that really hurt me alot ... and knoe since that this once beautiful friendship is OVER . i am not worried sayin this out loud... pls la you have hurt me so so much and this is one of the many incident where you have hurt me... i gave in so much to you and you had your ways i never questioned you .... but when i read your blog ... arr so much anger i felt in my veins

a prelude first ... since the humans(for the history student) remedial was before poa remedial our teacher mr soh pushed the remedial to a later time slot ... but being me i did not go for that class ... but when i came home .... i was reprimanded by chee woon , and there he was trying to make me understand his point of view , but chee woon you don get the fact that when you are putting forth your idea you should stop and listen to wad others are sayin ... if you don want to accept then we cant force ya , but ya have to give others a chance to air their views

quote from " http://happyreave.blogspot.com/ " his blog

after that was poa lesson and went home straight...letting ppl to understand a problem ended up that i am the 1 at fault.well.. i have no denied and accept my fault if there is gracefully but he can't find his..hmm..i dont care le.let this fade away without being notice bah.

so now you are telling me that i am not graceful enough ...please not to boast but i think that i have been gracious enough to your sinful existance ...

there is a breaking point for every human and you have made me found mine
thank you for that ... i now knoe how it feels to be truly hurt ... it is true as the sayin goes " a person's bark can be worse than his bite "

another entry which i would like to comment on is

It's your choice to accept or reject for who i am.I know a person who i had regarded as best friend,so did him.however,the things that he do i accepted,the sorrow i had cleared.however i am not people's guardian angle,neither am i a person who can take all the sorrows.everytime i helped people i had to take another chuck of sorrow.I ain't perfect.I can't take them all.I am this weak.This is me and i am not hiding it.

do you knoe how contradicting ya ca be ... in the earlier part of this entry you were rambling of loneliness and now you say this ... gosh go and get your head checked up dude ... pls it is for your own good... i don knoe if this best fren ya talking abt in this extract is abt me ... but if it pls the bolded sentence makes me sick, and one thing before i forget if someones says that you are a nice person he/she obviously does not knoe you or have been hurt by you ...
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message to chee woon
the tribute ends here ... and if ya want to knoe more come and ask me personally ok...

i treated ya like a brother and this is wad i got ... you have made me lose my trust in the word friendship and truly understanding another person beside yourself...
god have mercy on your soul

i will resume writing on a later date