matriculate

what have i learnt from the whole ns experience .. ok i wont use the word 'whole' so would till date suffice .



i am actually kinda of grateful for this experience - who knew i could actually survive in a place with all boys and yet come out with all my element held up high. my cousin told me to toughen up before i go to ns and caring for others will not sit well with my other bunkmates - care a little less man up and dont give a fuck, in other words deny who am i be someone i am not - throw the bitchyness aside and just try to fit in with the masses



but hell that aint me - i stick out even when i dont want to - attention seeks me not the other way around - am i being to air headed and delusional when i type this - is there something wrong with me - does it take a third person to point out the flaws in my over analysing attitude and character...



in this sense i can proudly say the best way and soultion or attitude to bring to a new situation place or setting is TO BE YOURSELF



love me hate me i dont give a dame - its just like a song if you love me then THANK YOU and if you hate me FUCK YOU ....



BOY I FEEL SELF ABSORBED TYPING ALL THIS OKI NO MORE BITCHIN and for some reason i think i have gone terribly out of point while typing this ( badly of focus must be the morphine )



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oh ya talking about morphine i just when for a spinal fusion at l5s1 to curb wad i have been feeling for the longest time



before i knew i had to go for another op , just the idea of going for another op just destroyed me .good thing i found good frens and a good support system which helped me through that trying period

you know who you are peeps i owe the world to you
its it times like this where we know who our true frens are

and to a certain someone who i know will be reading this - if you think i should call you and tell ya abt my plight so you would call me back and wish me fuck you bitch....

Fireflies

would it be crazy of me to stay NS is awesome

i have had so much fun made tonnes of like minded friends with similar physical ailments. enough to form a team ( team slipped ) pun intended

the last five weeks have breezed by so fast - and my bunk mates are effin awesome

a little summary abt each one

din - our bunk ic we didnt start on the right foot and yes oddities did exist and still do but boy can he clean . he is like a cleaning machine and does almost all the cleaning for our bunk which we are super grateful for

jon - ex blss school mate ,its good to see a familiar face when you go somewhere new . was fun drives an uber car which i set in twice gave me good advice abt dealing with a problem i had/have thanks dude...

dexter - yet another chao keng king with an ipod charger . a good fren which have the abilities to delete facebook accounts how cool is that - total tech kid...

daryl - an alcholic in the making , the only guy in bunk who saw me totally hammered and smashed did some crazy stuff all in one night ...

zi yang- affectionatly known as jippun for his beady little eyes and his japanese disposure currentlty serving confinement for having his sar 21 being stunned . loads of common topics as both of us are from SMA he is a DMR kid...

hafiz - the joker in bunk and a really good sock juggler and yes i did wax him with black cloth tape.

wei jie - an excellent fren who looks out for me and my well being and also the guy who introduced me to the wonderful world of thai disco . i consider myself lucky to have a fren like him

kash - fellow indian in bunk

wilson - my bed buddy extremly helpful but he worrys a little too much really good buddy and often bullied becos he is a little too nice.

jason - twd champion who is seriously protective of his frens thats so so so sweet of him really thankful for wad he has done that night at siam bbk . it was the first time where i felt that some felt i was worth fight for . made me feel special...

wee siang - my baby bro a cute guy the resident ah beng in my bunk - both book and street smart super protective of me . i owe him alot and some reason i feel indepted to him hope all things goes well with him and that everything go according to his plan .

weilong - the big papa in buck a good fren and a good buddy who looks out for me

vietnam - i have called him that so much the i forgot his really name , he smiles and nods thats about all he does ...

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to bleaker news

i am going for a spinal lumbar fusion on the 11 of dec will be in hospital for 8 days ... bummer but wad the hell i have to go through it..

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PARTY
MARTELL
GALS
SEX
BOOZE
CARS
LOVE
MONEY


EUPHORIA

dawning

it has finally dawned on me - that this 8 mths of waiting will define just one moment in my life , the day i enlist into the army

it didnt dawn on me of the changes it will bring to me and my life style . the challenges i am going to face - the torment and agony of being fried under the sun - hey who am i kidding i have no idea what NS life is gonna be like for me... so many mixed reaction and comments for people who when through it , and like most things in life the reviews are mixed .

so say NS was the defining moment in their life - where they started to see things clearer ,where they said they met people from all walks of life and that their lifes were never the same - some unbreakable bonds were created while serving and that the core values of the SAF was with them forever and governed their lifes


Loyalty to Country

to think about it i am a very loyal person to my country - i hate it when anyone talks ill of it - hmm but will i give my life up for it hmm - lets wait and see

Leadership

i think i am a good leader - i dont see myself in a very authocratic stand point of view and neither am i laissez-faire i guess i am moderatly democratic and i take pride in whatever i do may it be leading a team in a discussion , teaching or selling Ice cream.

Discipline

hmm that i can work on

Professionalism

what i am thought i will try to do my level best - without complaining hmm that might be a little difficult , either way i will do my best

Fighting Spirit

i have lived with chronic pain for almost half of my life - i am one heck of a fighter aint nothing gonna break me down - i will count my fucking blessing if i have to but i am gonna fight fight fuck fight if i have to ( boy i feel good blogging )

Ethics

personal conduct should be second nature to me at least that what they are trying to teach me - you cant teach ethics you might be able to brand it onto skin but thats about it , it ends there nothing much ya can do abt it... you are either born with it or without it - period

Care for Soldiers

for the people who know me - knows that i take great pride in my friends and i am feircely territorial and i am anal about it . caring of anything that i can do... and i know i will do it well


theses is a before i enter ns and written with my current state of mine - the pure unadulterated version of what is going on in my mind.

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so far thank GOD for frens who say its gonna be fun and ns is gonna be an adventure and i bloody hell hope so - i guess i am one of the most perpared enlistee ever

i have sourced out enough information on what i am gonna go through the things i need and what to expect - darn i even know how i should pack my darn locker.

thank GOD for my cousin who gave me survival tips abt ns and rashid / kenneths constant encouragement - at times i fucking thing i am going over board with this...

fuck how bad can NS be - every guy i know have been through it and came out fine - and most of all it i can go through 2 weeks with out tramadol and function like a fucking normal human being i am FUCKING AMAZING

DONT BELIEVE ME THATS YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS

LIVE LIFE LOVE LIFE AND FUCK LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW

CHEERIOS

falling apart

what would you do when it all falls apart ?

yesterday was the worse and best day of my life...

aint gonna talk abt the worse part of it but heck the good part of it is amazing.

when for dinner at manhill and had my fill of liver - i am so addicted to liver and i have developed a craving for turtle soup .i want it hot and i want it now... all the bitches in the house go crazy. had dinner with kenneth hv and hh dinner was followed by a nice stroll at labradore park - i am finally in tune with nature


i love the beach , i love graden and i wanna be immersed in it ...

as random as always and i sure you wont have believed what i did ...

i called jajaju up and we ended up prawn fishing it was freaking fuckfantastic i am so doing it again - suja did all the catching and yes it was so much fun

pics are up on facebook if anyone wanna see our catch...

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night ended with S11 carrot cake.

i wanna pass out at 3 wake up at 10 and do it all over again

asher roth http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRVFfgoIKcg


new fav old song : ray of light by madonna


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8waV2G2lZs

obliteration

wad can i say nothing much blog worthy has happened recently except for my room makeover.

YES PEOPLE I HAVE FINALLY THROWN AWAY MY DESK

i am going for a more zen look in my room

minimum clutter with clean straight lines - while watching the Oprah show i realised that all this junk which i am holding on to is holding me back...everything that i have not used in 3 months or more has to go - i have realized that i can live without alot of things. its high time i let go of so many things

only when the old goes it makes place for the new - i am glad, i am happy

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things i need to buy

white paint
2 seater couch
32inch Sony bravia
new curtains

i plan to pain a new mural in my room - inspiration come to me...

Le Amore

love

–noun

1.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3.sexual passion or desire.

4.a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

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as usual i was again rudely woken up by our dear ms tan hweihwei , anyway it was time to wake ok nevermind i starting to ramble....

got ready and left my house met her at chinese graden and made our way down to city hall to meet gim heng the organiser for today's outing . as usual people were late and as soon as they arrived we when to jasons market to get our picnic supplies

kinda bueno
water
and some buns from some bakery there

we took a cab down to botanic gardens - boy it has been a long time since i picniced there...
was purely amazing the greenery and just smelling the air perked me up - i was kinda worried cos we would have to be sitting on the floor and all but THANK GOD my back did not flare up ...
just sitting there and watching the world go by and so different from what i use to .

thank you gimheng it was excately wad i needed and i loved it...

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after hanging there we got hungry and made our way down to holland v and had dinner at swensens

interesting conversations aside it was fun loved it

when home abt 10ish

FINAL TRAMADOL COUNT 6

reflections

when we look into a mirror do we have a choice to see what we want to see and more importantly is there a necessity to accept what we see -

REFLECTIONS
–noun

1.the act of reflecting or the state of being reflected.
2.an image; representation; counterpart.
3.a fixing of the thoughts on something; careful consideration.
4.a thought occurring in consideration or meditation.
5.an unfavorable remark or observation.
6.the casting of some imputation or reproach.

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i am gonna share with ya a recipe

homestyle breadpudding its extremely easy to make and i have done it several times both at home and at a class chalet is i am not wrong

things that you need

1 loaf of bread or 1 large french loaf
3/4 pack kara coconut milk
sugar to one's liking
1 cup of water
1 egg
1 tsp of all spice
cashew nuts ( lightly roasted )
rasins
salt
butter 100g

mash and mix into a clumpy mixture ( not too fine )

put mixture into round mole

there are 2 ways of cooking this

you could either steam it for 20 mins

or bake it for 30 min in a convection oven at 180 degrees

walah you are done...

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church was good i think i might have found out the answers for my questions

FINALLY...