dawning

it has finally dawned on me - that this 8 mths of waiting will define just one moment in my life , the day i enlist into the army

it didnt dawn on me of the changes it will bring to me and my life style . the challenges i am going to face - the torment and agony of being fried under the sun - hey who am i kidding i have no idea what NS life is gonna be like for me... so many mixed reaction and comments for people who when through it , and like most things in life the reviews are mixed .

so say NS was the defining moment in their life - where they started to see things clearer ,where they said they met people from all walks of life and that their lifes were never the same - some unbreakable bonds were created while serving and that the core values of the SAF was with them forever and governed their lifes


Loyalty to Country

to think about it i am a very loyal person to my country - i hate it when anyone talks ill of it - hmm but will i give my life up for it hmm - lets wait and see

Leadership

i think i am a good leader - i dont see myself in a very authocratic stand point of view and neither am i laissez-faire i guess i am moderatly democratic and i take pride in whatever i do may it be leading a team in a discussion , teaching or selling Ice cream.

Discipline

hmm that i can work on

Professionalism

what i am thought i will try to do my level best - without complaining hmm that might be a little difficult , either way i will do my best

Fighting Spirit

i have lived with chronic pain for almost half of my life - i am one heck of a fighter aint nothing gonna break me down - i will count my fucking blessing if i have to but i am gonna fight fight fuck fight if i have to ( boy i feel good blogging )

Ethics

personal conduct should be second nature to me at least that what they are trying to teach me - you cant teach ethics you might be able to brand it onto skin but thats about it , it ends there nothing much ya can do abt it... you are either born with it or without it - period

Care for Soldiers

for the people who know me - knows that i take great pride in my friends and i am feircely territorial and i am anal about it . caring of anything that i can do... and i know i will do it well


theses is a before i enter ns and written with my current state of mine - the pure unadulterated version of what is going on in my mind.

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so far thank GOD for frens who say its gonna be fun and ns is gonna be an adventure and i bloody hell hope so - i guess i am one of the most perpared enlistee ever

i have sourced out enough information on what i am gonna go through the things i need and what to expect - darn i even know how i should pack my darn locker.

thank GOD for my cousin who gave me survival tips abt ns and rashid / kenneths constant encouragement - at times i fucking thing i am going over board with this...

fuck how bad can NS be - every guy i know have been through it and came out fine - and most of all it i can go through 2 weeks with out tramadol and function like a fucking normal human being i am FUCKING AMAZING

DONT BELIEVE ME THATS YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS

LIVE LIFE LOVE LIFE AND FUCK LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW

CHEERIOS

falling apart

what would you do when it all falls apart ?

yesterday was the worse and best day of my life...

aint gonna talk abt the worse part of it but heck the good part of it is amazing.

when for dinner at manhill and had my fill of liver - i am so addicted to liver and i have developed a craving for turtle soup .i want it hot and i want it now... all the bitches in the house go crazy. had dinner with kenneth hv and hh dinner was followed by a nice stroll at labradore park - i am finally in tune with nature


i love the beach , i love graden and i wanna be immersed in it ...

as random as always and i sure you wont have believed what i did ...

i called jajaju up and we ended up prawn fishing it was freaking fuckfantastic i am so doing it again - suja did all the catching and yes it was so much fun

pics are up on facebook if anyone wanna see our catch...

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night ended with S11 carrot cake.

i wanna pass out at 3 wake up at 10 and do it all over again

asher roth http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRVFfgoIKcg


new fav old song : ray of light by madonna


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8waV2G2lZs

obliteration

wad can i say nothing much blog worthy has happened recently except for my room makeover.

YES PEOPLE I HAVE FINALLY THROWN AWAY MY DESK

i am going for a more zen look in my room

minimum clutter with clean straight lines - while watching the Oprah show i realised that all this junk which i am holding on to is holding me back...everything that i have not used in 3 months or more has to go - i have realized that i can live without alot of things. its high time i let go of so many things

only when the old goes it makes place for the new - i am glad, i am happy

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things i need to buy

white paint
2 seater couch
32inch Sony bravia
new curtains

i plan to pain a new mural in my room - inspiration come to me...

Le Amore

love

–noun

1.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3.sexual passion or desire.

4.a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

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as usual i was again rudely woken up by our dear ms tan hweihwei , anyway it was time to wake ok nevermind i starting to ramble....

got ready and left my house met her at chinese graden and made our way down to city hall to meet gim heng the organiser for today's outing . as usual people were late and as soon as they arrived we when to jasons market to get our picnic supplies

kinda bueno
water
and some buns from some bakery there

we took a cab down to botanic gardens - boy it has been a long time since i picniced there...
was purely amazing the greenery and just smelling the air perked me up - i was kinda worried cos we would have to be sitting on the floor and all but THANK GOD my back did not flare up ...
just sitting there and watching the world go by and so different from what i use to .

thank you gimheng it was excately wad i needed and i loved it...

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after hanging there we got hungry and made our way down to holland v and had dinner at swensens

interesting conversations aside it was fun loved it

when home abt 10ish

FINAL TRAMADOL COUNT 6

reflections

when we look into a mirror do we have a choice to see what we want to see and more importantly is there a necessity to accept what we see -

REFLECTIONS
–noun

1.the act of reflecting or the state of being reflected.
2.an image; representation; counterpart.
3.a fixing of the thoughts on something; careful consideration.
4.a thought occurring in consideration or meditation.
5.an unfavorable remark or observation.
6.the casting of some imputation or reproach.

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i am gonna share with ya a recipe

homestyle breadpudding its extremely easy to make and i have done it several times both at home and at a class chalet is i am not wrong

things that you need

1 loaf of bread or 1 large french loaf
3/4 pack kara coconut milk
sugar to one's liking
1 cup of water
1 egg
1 tsp of all spice
cashew nuts ( lightly roasted )
rasins
salt
butter 100g

mash and mix into a clumpy mixture ( not too fine )

put mixture into round mole

there are 2 ways of cooking this

you could either steam it for 20 mins

or bake it for 30 min in a convection oven at 180 degrees

walah you are done...

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church was good i think i might have found out the answers for my questions

FINALLY...

Expeditions

I wanted to wake up and send Kenneth and huivern a Bon voyage sms ... but i could wake up so anyway i think i did tell them to have a good trip . regardless i think they will have a good time... just hope not too good a time ...

anyway i stayed at home the whole day and as usual i was doped . the side effects are finally taking a toll on my body . i feel freaking pregnant and nauseous and the worse thing is the gastric darn that really sucks...

anyway this is my last entry talking about the pain i am facing - it is starting to play too big a part of my life and i have to irradiate it...

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any who i have two parties to attend on the 26th and because of that i cant go to mama's house darn wad a waste... doubt i will have a chance to go there anytime soon...

i miss my old life style of attending infamous parties and chilling out at amazing places darn wad ever happened to that old care free me. the come back is near and i can feel it ...

there are so many places in Singapore which i have yet to explore - several restaurants to eat at several bars to get drunk in ...

DANIEL YOU WILL DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ( NEW MANTRA )

with or without you

today i was woken up by ms tan hwei hwei who told me to get ready in 15 mins - can ya imagine that... darn that woman.. any way dropped kenneth a msg and asked him to join us... she took half day by the way ... that gal deserved it . she swinged by to pick him up before meeting me...
as usual we had no clue where to go and suddenly we found ourself at science park...

where we had a switch of drivers as usual our resident princess prefers to be chauffeured than drive so ken took over the wheel and we ended at the Korean bbq restaurant and had the lunch special ... as usual i had the stone pot , he had the mackerel and she had the spicy chicken soup we chilled out there till they sort of chased us out and since we all were still in the mood to hang out we when down to haato somewhere near mount sinai... pretty place had drinks and waffles there...

i know more or less we do sound like gluttons by who gives a rats ass about it... we sent Kenneth back home so he could pack for his trip and we made our way down to IMM it feels like a long time since we spent time together... we shopped and guess wad she actually bought something ... which is a big deal if you know her. we when down to esprit and some random shoe shop.... retail therapy that wad i am talking about. it really perks a person up and you feel so good after .

TOTALLY ORGASMIC I HEART SHOPPING ....

we ended our day with desert at Kopitiam

i heart hanging out with peeps...

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randomisation

yesterday i was teaching a primary one maths class at xin nan primary school and i while checking the pupils work i came across something totally ridiculous

5 x 3 = 14

i had no idea how he got this answer - and i kept asking him how he got that answer and he repeatedly told me the same thing ...

i was so furious at him and just wanted to burst out at him when i looked at his name

guess what it was KENNETH TAN

I SO bursted OUT LAUGHING ...LOL

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22ND OCT I HAVE CHALLENGED MYSELF..
AIN'T TELL YA WAD TILL I WIN IN IT...