a brand new yr

shall all bad aquaintance be forgotten and hope they fall in a drain X2

ok let me do a post mortem of last year ... yes though memorable it has its fair amount of shitty experiences .. also learnt the harsh reality that frens are never wad they seem . gosh there are so many ppl walking around with paper masks on and are completly different when ya turn your back ... but wad to do we are living in a very sinful world . but like wad mama( godmum) told the best way to live life is with the fuck care attitude . and yes i completely agree . ppl must start taking responsibility for thier action and stop being cowards...

the more we try to forget about an incident all more it comes and bites ya on the ass . but that is life isnt it .. who knoes

there is lots i wanna do this year and the decisions i make this year will determine my future and lots more ....

1 . o level results
2 . my poly/jc selection
3 . course selection
4 . _________
and many more

all i want in my life is good frens who i can trust me ... i need frens who accept me the way i am ... not changing to thier convience and i so hate being used . i do not enjoy playin postman and a string puller . often ending as the third party ... this is all just getting out of hand ... i need something stable in my life . i want to be grounded . i want to be able to harden my heart and take all shit that is thrown my way ... i need strengt i need power .... i need the strenght to refuse a person and most of all say NO ... why is so so so very hard to tell a person No ....

arrr

wad a way to start the year ...

i heard the song hung up by madonna and a part of it really made good sense to me


Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up I don't know what to do

party on the 30 th was wonderful loved it lots thanks peeps for comin ...

i will blog a happier entry soon * promise