hate it

i hate it
i hate the way you treat me , you knoe who you are i don have to spell it out to you. this is unfair to me and your due reward will come and consume you quick . this is too much you really prove the point to me . i am a punching bag even if i don fight back why do you kill me this way . you have really hurt my heart . you knoe who you are . at times i think that it is just me . but this is so not true now . i have given in enough to you .... wad the hell in going on in my life . wad i did or wad i am doing is never appreciated this is just too much ... I HATE IT

I AM SO WEAK INSIDE

I DO NOT LIKE THE WAY I FEEL ANYMORE

i am weak emotionally and it seem that the treatment i recieve today just proves my point. my feelings is never considered at all any where . don you care about me at all. although i may seem to be a happy go lucky person / carefree i do hurt you knoe . the only thing i do is just blame myself and say that i am sorry. yes it does work well most of the time . the other party feels happy while i stab my heart over and over again

my only solace tea i am off to find you . although the truth is so obvious and all infront of me i shall not bend nor buckle... GOSH i am so going to just suck it up and live the horrid life i am living in . help me my exams are nearing ever so close .

HELP me i need you dear Lord