term two

i ya wanna knoe why i did not update my blog . it was not becos i was lazy or did not have the time but painly because i just had nothing worthy writing about. and the more i think about it the more i am dying inside. bit by bit i am fading inside at times the pain is juz too much to bear. the pain in my head in juz to intense that i feel like cracking it open and taking the pain out and juz burning it over an open fire.the pain radiates from my head and it is all over my body

i have been doing things that i do not actually want to do .i don wan anybody to know my short comings and i don knoe what is happening inside me PHYSICALLY. I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN AND THOUGH i don show it out i am so suffering inside. i am so ashamed of myself when i think about the life i could have and what is actually happeing to me now.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could
-beAnd if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakawayOut of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change

And breakaway............

i juz so wanna breakaway and fly away far far away
if i could go... ONLY If i COULD GO

when to watch a couple of movies and the eye 10 was the worst i thought that it would be scary but it was funny so cliche.... not worth my $8.50 .... tomorrow is good friday i hope tomorrow would be a day of solume and sobre for me . take away my pain and give me rest or dear Lord