Tuesday, April 19, 2005

the day started like any other typical day . hated to wake up and have bath and the drag my super lazy body to the stupid dreaded boon lay sec sch....

when to meet kiat yin at the vending machine just behind the school . and i really don knoe how to say this to my horror or surprise we were rudely introduce to four trans gender guys ... my gosh if i had not heard their voice i would have not known they were guys.... they were so beautifully dressed and had make up on and they even carried handbags... and there was this guy* who was tryin to adjust his pading under his bra..... what the *&^%........

collected my result got 21 for my poa expected grade . felt quite happy bout it . but my science result was a disapointment... wad can i say.. not the grade i wanted arrrrrr.... nevermind ...

my back is getting worst by the days go by... i wish it is all a bad dream and i just really wanna wake up from this horrible nightmare... i knoe you care my dear but your tears only bring me down further do not cry for me. i have accepted my faith and it is high time you did the same to. i really .... i need you to be strong and most importantly i need you to lift me up when i fall down and dear darling be there and walk with me...

sorry i lied to you . i knoe i cant bring myself to do this anymore but you knoe wad i am trying to do . just do not think abt wad i do. please . it will only upset the both of us... trust i am trying to do all in my power . to stop wad i am doin .... it is true that only a true fren would be angry when his friend hurts himself... i really appreciate wad you are doing for me but just please .... i give you my word i will stop wad i am doin....

i am sorry if i don smile as much as i used to .this is not beacause i am stucked up or anything like that... but trust me nobody knoes the pain i am going through ... and i don expect anyone to find out. at times i just feel like giving up everything i have , but i will never give up cause i knoe that the good lord has plans for me and i am just a piece is his excellent master piece.

came back home after school and had a bath and rested a while infront of my com listnening to groove coverage .... soon chee woon followed by bazilla . we had tuition and it was over at 6 .30 ... when to meet peik shin and soon eng at mac . taught them bits of chemistry..... when for dinner and i am here now typing my blog ... listening to groove coverage . the song far away from home ...

In my dreams I am not so far away from home,
What am I in a world so far away from home
, All my life all the time so far away from home,
Without you I will be so far away from home.

seemed so true in my life...........

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