it true

i knoe that some how you will be able to know of wad i write in my entries .yes it is true when they are drunk you say the truth .

and sure you did . know i know excatly wad ya think of me . i am grateful but i am hurt also . but thanks anyway now i knoe the truth . i didnt know that you you dint like me kissing you . i thought that you liked it . but when you told me that you actually hated that .i knew wad i did was you . i know that if i try to justify myself . it would be nothing but excuses. i shall live with that ....

nikki and pam called me . when i was in biz stats tutorial .., that was the only fun part of it ..... school SUCKS ... yes it does

i drank alot today

i had a

2003 durdoux ( red wine )
2002 ros'e shiraz ( red wine )
absolute red ruby vodka
aboslute rasberry vodka
absolute apeach vodka
level vodka

yes it all tasted heavenly

mama throws the best parties in the whole wide world
the menu is execellent

we had
6 diff kinds of pizza
samosa
spring roll
salad
chocalates
m n m 's

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kumar came with his grp of frens
most of them are cool ( i think )
he has been like an elder bro to me .....

i love myself you think i am afaminate so be it
i can relate better with girls is that a crime
accept me for the way i am if anyone thinks that i am a let down so be it .
i am who i am
love me hate me i don care
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of ya think you have a hot galfren guess wad i have several hot gal friends! ...

at the end of the day it is me who hang out with the ppl you dream of .....

if ya think you can dance try me i will beat ya in the cha cha or rhumba anyday
i don swing my hands violently in clubs i have a frame and structure if ya know wad i mean


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i am not sure if mama knew if we said bye to her . i really hope she knew .hope she is alrite she looked rather high when i left .

took a cab with bryan , pam and zangke . ... now i am typing this as i lie on my bed ...
this is how i feel at this point of time ...

feeling sleepy now .. i wanna rest .

all i wanted is for you to accept me the way i am yes i have changed..... i need to have a long chat with ya when ya free lets do this .... it just hurts me too much ...... lets talk this out just the 2 of us.... you know wad i mean , when ya hear abt this ,,, call me lets go out . we NEED to clear this .... i don want this to affect our frenship..... cos it means alot to me

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take care nikki and mama pam , geri and zk and russel and ah thu ,rodger and alan and terence and denise and he 15yr fren and tommy and ben ben and kumar and fletcher and khye and satish and charles and cee hua and don and the guy with the dyed hair and darren elieen ,wendy and weixiang bryan , melvyn ,( denise's cousin bryan )
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AND FOR THE LAST TIME I AM NOT GAY

WAD THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM

I LIKE GIRLS AND ALL THAT COMES WITH THEM

I AM STRAIGHT

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UNLESS YA WANNA FUCK WITH ME DON ASK ME ABT MY SEXUAL ORIENTATION

I AM WAD I AM

SCREW YOU BITCHES/BASTARDS
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lifestyle

hiya peeps if there is anybody actually reading my blog

is some strange way at times i wish nobody does , but at timee i wished the whole world would just peep in to my life . i don think that wad i want is strange . is it too much to actually ask for . a certain level of privacy thats all i ask for i am sick of ppl discussing my life on the blog entries i type . a reason why i actually started writin a personal journal . i little note book where i can put all my feelings and desires

life can be a bitch at times but i still long it all the more... some really cool and shitty stuff has happen over the past weeks of my absence. more shitty than good stuff . putting all the shit aside i still made time for myself and caught a movie pirates not too bad not all that good either . i also when for a concert at the durain " romance under the moonlight " by johaan strauss . excellent arrangements and the dance of the the blue daunbe was the best i have every heard . i love the way how thy always make the audience interect with the sso musicians . excellent work

i finally got a chance to see how nikki rides her horse at the polo club . kinda the cool " life style of the rich and famous or should i say infamous " lol nikki you should know wad i mean hehehehe

i have so many distractions in my life right now but some how it all seems to go away when i am in my room all alone . my room is my santuary . how i wish i can summon micheal from his grave to paint my celing . all i want to be surrounded by is art music and poetry and booze . my close fren of mine told me once that i am an alcoholic please la i drink any for pleasure the feeling of being intoxicated is euphoric . you just feel so light literally and the pain is all gone away . i know that it is only temporary but the feeling is great as long as it last .

come on people we only get to live once if we dont enjoy it now in our youth how can we do it when we are older . live for the moment do wad your heart desires just enjoy every moment on our beautiful earth . we dont know how long more we are going to live but let every moment be filled with fun and laughter peace and joy

school is being a bitch , my Ideas project is far from completion and my CD project lets not go there and my exams are in a week time . GOD bless us all . there are alot of people i wanna meet . there is so much i wanna do i seriously cant wait for the upcoming 6 week break holidays

i wanna go to my uncles house and stay for abt a week i wanna go hiking and i wanna swim in the waterfall and go hunting cant wait . it would be fantastic and one care to join me ...

diamonds and rubies