Wednesday, January 11, 2006

raining ...

the rain never seems end this is such a mood dampener .... yes it is the perfect weather to snoooze but i have done it already ... my bed time is going haywire trying to force myself to sleep aint working anymore.... cough mixture with warm water has failed me . i need sleeping pills i wish i could just sleep and wake up on the 26th of april ... i want to be eighteen so bad so i need not borrow ids or hold my stomach till i enter a club this is so so ultra depressing .

waiting for my aunt to call me ... guess wad peeps i am going to be paid to clean her house .... yeah ... this is so so exciting .

scrubing - cleaning - wiping

leslie will be going back to perth 14th... met him on the 10th and ate with him and adrain and nikki and richmond at marche ... never knew little nikki could eat so so so much ...oinky piggie after that wanted to watch a movie at cine but there nothing nice to watch so decided to go to taka instead leslie bought chocolates which was extremly nice both milk and dark . and yes we battled the rain while walking from cine to taka . never knew newspaper had multi functions. both for general knowledge and for shade against the elements ... lol after that when to paragon and slacked for a while. mama then fetched us to polo club ....

i hope house cleaning would make me the next martha .that would be so cool without the stock fraud though ... but wad ever . i heard 3 teachers left boon lay, mr tan bh , ms wai and my beloved mdm pearly lee . she was so fun to be with . gosh i learnt so much from her she was there and taught me patiently when i couldnt understand electricity . she is an excellent private tutor .

teachers who left a mark in my life

she was there to push me on . often telling me to becareful with my punctuations and my spellings . and was there to encourage me when i was down and despired. who pushed me on when i felt like crap always telling me that i will only excel if i put my heart into it ... and giving such wonderful presents... the maxsim tickets were excellent. she is non other than my english teacher mdm suizela ... love ya to bits my dear teacher

i will feature a different teacher every entry
next up would be Mr tan bh

.: { D@n!eL } :.

Monday, January 02, 2006

a brand new yr

shall all bad aquaintance be forgotten and hope they fall in a drain X2

ok let me do a post mortem of last year ... yes though memorable it has its fair amount of shitty experiences .. also learnt the harsh reality that frens are never wad they seem . gosh there are so many ppl walking around with paper masks on and are completly different when ya turn your back ... but wad to do we are living in a very sinful world . but like wad mama( godmum) told the best way to live life is with the fuck care attitude . and yes i completely agree . ppl must start taking responsibility for thier action and stop being cowards...

the more we try to forget about an incident all more it comes and bites ya on the ass . but that is life isnt it .. who knoes

there is lots i wanna do this year and the decisions i make this year will determine my future and lots more ....

1 . o level results
2 . my poly/jc selection
3 . course selection
4 . _________
and many more

all i want in my life is good frens who i can trust me ... i need frens who accept me the way i am ... not changing to thier convience and i so hate being used . i do not enjoy playin postman and a string puller . often ending as the third party ... this is all just getting out of hand ... i need something stable in my life . i want to be grounded . i want to be able to harden my heart and take all shit that is thrown my way ... i need strengt i need power .... i need the strenght to refuse a person and most of all say NO ... why is so so so very hard to tell a person No ....

arrr

wad a way to start the year ...

i heard the song hung up by madonna and a part of it really made good sense to me


Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up I don't know what to do

party on the 30 th was wonderful loved it lots thanks peeps for comin ...

i will blog a happier entry soon * promise