matriculate

what have i learnt from the whole ns experience .. ok i wont use the word 'whole' so would till date suffice .



i am actually kinda of grateful for this experience - who knew i could actually survive in a place with all boys and yet come out with all my element held up high. my cousin told me to toughen up before i go to ns and caring for others will not sit well with my other bunkmates - care a little less man up and dont give a fuck, in other words deny who am i be someone i am not - throw the bitchyness aside and just try to fit in with the masses



but hell that aint me - i stick out even when i dont want to - attention seeks me not the other way around - am i being to air headed and delusional when i type this - is there something wrong with me - does it take a third person to point out the flaws in my over analysing attitude and character...



in this sense i can proudly say the best way and soultion or attitude to bring to a new situation place or setting is TO BE YOURSELF



love me hate me i dont give a dame - its just like a song if you love me then THANK YOU and if you hate me FUCK YOU ....



BOY I FEEL SELF ABSORBED TYPING ALL THIS OKI NO MORE BITCHIN and for some reason i think i have gone terribly out of point while typing this ( badly of focus must be the morphine )



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oh ya talking about morphine i just when for a spinal fusion at l5s1 to curb wad i have been feeling for the longest time



before i knew i had to go for another op , just the idea of going for another op just destroyed me .good thing i found good frens and a good support system which helped me through that trying period

you know who you are peeps i owe the world to you
its it times like this where we know who our true frens are

and to a certain someone who i know will be reading this - if you think i should call you and tell ya abt my plight so you would call me back and wish me fuck you bitch....