hiya everybody
i doubt anyone reads my blog , but just in case any one stumble across it heres an entry. my absense from this site is excusable i have been blogging in a private blog and since that is out in the open . PLEASE do not ask me for the link . thank you very much
there is alot of things i would like to say but where do i start , how do i judge wad is blog worthy and wad is not. i am confused half the time. my mind is in is constant battle with my body - if that ever makes any sense.
emotions
happynessi have been very happy lately maybe its becos it is the more greatest of seasons ( the season of giving ) christmas . you can feel it in your heart all you have to do is feel the season, if you don know wad it is like i will give ya a hint - it is the warm fuzzy when you get into your warm bed , it is like the nostagia of looking at old pictures , it s the feeling when you are holding a warm cup of milo on a cold rainy day . i have been meeting up with mama and nikki planning the annual christmas party boy thats gonna be a blast boozing and feasting till the wee hours of the morning . thats so gonna rock cant wait
sadnessmy grandmum came back from india few days ago . i heard that she had a heart attack there . she has not been the same after the open heart surgery . she is not the same lady who held my small hands and ran across the road. the lady who once stood tall is now all weak and feeble . the way she hides the pain in her bones just to tell me that she is alrite i just love her so much - even when she was in india she called me to ask me if i had eaten and told me to study well. even when she was there her heart was here in singapore . wad would i have done if i had found out that she had died in india . i wouldnt have the chance to tell her how much i love and adore her, i wouldnt have lost the chance to thank her for all the magic and love she had given to each of her grandchildren......
angeri shant elaborate too much on this emotion . i have put you behind me . i don need you anymore . i have all wad is need and you mean nothing to me now. i hate you , you have hurt me and i hate you for that , i will never forgive you and thats that, outsiders don ask me anything abt this
lovemore like love LOST
friendshipnever can a person on this earth be blest with the kind/bunch of frens i have both is school and home . my most treasured primary school fren , my loveable secondary frens and now my adorable SMA kahkis not to mention all my frens outside of school ....
but at the same till not to sound to cliche who are my frens , who do i classify frens . what are true frens , wad is the true meaning of a best fren , wad does it mean to be comforted by a fren ..... thank God i have a life time to figure out that
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5na1 class chalet this thursday and friday will it ever be like last time . saw ravinder at LJS in JP . it somehow felt different it felt distant . i was in this dudes class for 5 years... why i just don understand. i hope i don feel too out of place at the chalet . i miss them alot actually ppl still in school read this carefully choose your frens wisely for these are the ppl will will be behind you for the rest of your life at least ( thats wad i think ) how do ppl keep frenship for years on end . wad is the secret ....
the singaporean winter is here the thunder and lightings are just telling us that this year is ending and a new year is dawning . lets all pray that next yr will be a better year for all . may it be filled with joy love and Christ.
i will pray for you pam this is a promise
leave your stardust to remember you by
