school

school has been ok ... i believe the last week when ok... nothing fantastic happen though .... lots of bickering in class alot of discontent but wad can i say .. it is 5 na 1 after all ( united we stand ) ta rite... for me all this is turning into bull shit ... but wad can i say... i really starting to believe wad kai juan said abt too many wounds that cannot be healed... figuratively though

when to the dentist that day and guess wad ... i need to have my wisdom teeth removed Yes... teeth ... both my left and right teeth. i am having it removed at de pacfic ... it would cost mt daddy a wopping 800 dollars for a tooth to be removed... and i have to go for surgery twice... ouch ... the up side is a five days mc ... which i so cant use as i am doing it during the sept holiday
... searched through the internet and found a pic of sumone who have the same condition as i do



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cant wait for monday ... my class is having an outing ... wonder why kim(shit) is coming along ... but wad can i say.... wonder wad i should bring there ... and wad would i be doing... cant wait... going with maryln to watch a concert tomolo...

arrr i so need to study... and i hope my father is alrite...

my wondeful class

today was an easy day in school ... started off with maths and it was the usual .... he screaming ... we doing our work... i don think he likes our class alot....

but the highlight of wad happen started only after school.... ok maybe at the last 2 periods. it was only then where the claws and finger pointing started.... everyone had something to say and i am kinda happy that everything is out... but thinking again wad is the point ... at last we were not able to acheive anything... from how i see it. there will always be the ' great divide ' in the class wad can change that . quote me " it is sure diff to come out of our comfort zone to mingle wad " just don knoe where this all is going... hope everything would iron out itself...

alvin and hui xian are so made for each other .. so romantic ... rock on couple ....the 'soure' of the discussions.... sure disappeared fast........ don knoe where is this all heading . the year where everything is suppose to go rite everything goes wrong .... ironic...

painted several parts of the dragon with kaman .... we rock rite .... the gold, green, red ,white were all painted by us .... so proud of it... i wonder how is mondays meeting gonna turn out...... so much work so little time ... don knoe wad to do..

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to denise thanks for helping me with the blog ... you did a splendid job on it is so beautiful . thanks a million ... you got to teach me how to do it someday okie... and all the other tricks of the trade ...

back

i waiting for my new blogskin to be done.... it is being custom made by denise ... rock on gal... so much had happen over the last few weeks ... but now with all that behind me it is time to move on...

for some weird reason.... i am enjoying school ... the company i keep and lessons just seem so fun.. make me wanna go to school .... today lessons were fun , did my english ca4 a letter... wrote abt for pages . i think i when overboard... but handed in the paper to mrs lim koh to put it on ms yap's table ....

after school had my remedials started of with chem . the teacher in charge is such a comedian ... very sweet lady mrs sin ... answers all my questions and cleared all my doubts.. if the o level is only abt organic chem i am very sure i will do well... the remedials were back to back just as chem was over physics began.... mr yip is a wonderful teacher.... i and kaman are a good pair we managed to do all the mcq question on radioactivity...... cool in record time

me yip looked so tired after the class was over so were we... he was also losing his voice... i and kaman when to jurong point and had dinner there at mcdonal ...we talked abt so many things.... the class, ppl and so much more....

now back at home blogging .... so tired and washed up ...
i so need to sleep .... mr bong you rock ...

yadayada

when to school today and everything seems to be working in favor of me . i am just so so happy . i do believe i got my spark and i am finaly sitting down and studyin ... during lesson we were setting our goals .... but first let me type abt
interesting characters i met not face to face though ....

first is " your worst nightmare "

Fucking Christ you make baby jesus cry. Before you flame make sure you know basic english and have an IQ higher than 3, fucktard. I bet your teen angst is a direct result of incest in your family.It's no one's fault you were raped anally by your father . Don't take it out on other people. I know its hard to imagine yourself being loved, but someday someone might just accept you for the retarded dipshit that you are. OH WHO AM I TRYING TO KID, THAT'D NEVER HAPPEN.

wow this person seems so so angry don worry . i will pray for ya and yes i will try to change and be a better person for you . since you care so very very much for me. and want me to be a better person . you are god sent . thanks a lot . and i am very sure you got the wrong person . i am very sure my father did not fuck me ... i personally believe that you need help , a good doctor would be very useful .

and another character is "anonymous"

he/she said bitching behind the monitor i see? got your penis stuck in your asshole dude? your a guy for fucks sake face up to it. oh yah and your photos? try be more manly it would attract the wrong gender

penis stuck in my asshole ... gosh that sure would be difficult. never tried though care to share your experiences.. and the pics i take is non of your fucking business... stuff it up your ass dude ... if ya don like seeing it just dont who is compelling you to do so ...

and another person would be ms jenna

hmm wad can i say even if i am tryin to drop this thing i doubt she would want to. though i have ppl around me who hates me , but by number i am sure it exceeds the number of ppl who hate ya ... but wadever and yes you are smarter .... SO .... wadever....

messages to my new found frens .... why hide behind a nickname . come on be manly( refers to both gender ) enough to type your real name.... if not please just .... how do i put this FUCK OFF...

I KNOE YOU HAVE MY INTEREST AT HEART BUT BACK OFF YOU 'R SO NOT WELCOMED HERE...
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richomond came up to me saying for me to end this fight and for everything to be over ... i did agree with him and wanted to end it all and start off with a clean slate . coming home and reading my blog tells me that you aint interested in that . not even ending it off ... so lets see how this works out.......

feelin perfect

to jenna

when to jenna's blog and lets see wad should i said the all powerful/mighty jenna had something to say abt my english

this is wad i wrote for thoese who missed it


_ _ _ N _ you are such a fucking bitch go and hump yourself against the wall you heartless turd you are so not worth , wonder why people still hang around and mix with you . you deserve to be alone . money ain't everything bitch i knoe exactly why people hate you .... guess again not everyone likes you ... and guess wad i heard it for the people closest to you . this is so not worth it And for the last time i am not gay why do i have to explain anything to you . you don waste my time and don go round spreading things you yourself are not sure abt ...... for fuck yourself ..... pls la change yes you sure knoe how to bitch abt thing .... people must see your true colours ... and i am not afraid to tell them.... but why waste my time and energy ....... you ain't worth it BITCH say wad you want abt yourself don pull me in .... you cant keep a secret .... you cant even keep a pin .......... why act dumb the last time i asked you abt it ... running away from wad you said ........ go creep sum where else ...... if ya have any question come ask me ..... but a second thought no dont .... i don want to be filthy .... the sight of you makes me irks..... you are a big fat liar ....... bitch burn in hell .
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i am very sure people who read this would knoe wad i am tryin to say ... but according to the high and mighty .... this is was she had to say..

now now, i don't know how and why you keep making it seem as if your english is totally perfect. but OMIGOD ITS TERRIBLE. you wanna flame me, at least do it in decent english. i can list at least 10spelling errors and at least 10 more grammar mistakes. stop thinking so highly of yourself lah. wake up. have you realised how much you are contradicting yourself? i suggest you dont even bitch about me when you don't even understand yourself. i wonder how in the world others are gon comprehend what you wrote

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now it is my turn to comment ... for the record ppl do get wad i mean for example YOU . didn't you get wad i was tryin to say.... hmm... so wad is i have errors in my entry . i still managed to get wad i wanted to say across rite... point* and for the record you are the one with the NON-EXISTENT BALLS . cause i am very sure i have mine... yes i would not want to subject myself to your verbal assult. why should i ,that would make me a fool ... i am really sad that god did not give me the gift of gapping like he gave you.... but wad can i say rite... nvm, at least i am doing well in my NA stream .... rather well to say ... you can wait all you want the moon will never turn blue for you .... yes two can play a game ... esp when you are the one who started it... CARRION

Feeling perfect :)
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now with that aside... yesterday when to collect an award for doing well in my 'n' levels ... that was so cool but the prize was not a 150 dollar gift voucher from popular.... after that came to jp met hafiz han xian adrian and chinming for a movie ... we watched fantastic four ... not bad... comedy meets science fiction.... FLAME ON ... when to church today ...and now back at home blogging . wonder wad the future holds for me....

off to study later...........

.:-{ D@n!eL }-:.

listening compr " this big 'O's "

back home after short day at school . school was over at 12.40 and the last lesson was english my favorite subject . ms yap is such a jovial person .... hahaha and she is also very against alvin ( according to him as she gave him 6 marks for oral ) i would have given a 9 though it was not bad....

i do not why situations always put in in very horrible positions ... don knoe why i was made to sit behind him in class ... during english lesson to . and when he turned back to look at anna ( she sits behind me ) he glanced at me so did i . but i am very sure now that . everything that once existed is now completely loss.... should i be happy or sad , i wonder. do i give a dam now i really do not knoe.... i have moved all my books from the front to the back of the class already.... does that mean anything... so so so confused

guna and i walked to the bus stop and then took a bus to the coffeeshop near my house . i bought the usual mixed rice . while he bought duck rice ... came back to my house and ate here ... and as usual she when to complain abt how untidy i was .... she has to do this with everyone who i bring home

was chatting with jingyi ... she and pam are planning to set up a club at club house at her condo ... so exciting ... bouncers bartenders deejays the real deal ... and best of all it is by invite only how cool is that... lets see how the whole thing folds out this is just so so cool ... cant wait.....

off to school ... to do my listening compre ... how it goes all well and i pocket my 10 marks..

friendship

if there is one thing i have learnt in secondary school is that ... things never last forever

friendship for that matter is actually non existant ....

today while surfing the net and through my friendster account i saw my once used to be best frenz profile . and the testi i wrote for him in wad i refer to as the " honeymoon" part of a friendship . wow now readin it actually makes me wonder was i ever like wad i wrote . did i mean it at that point of time . was that friendship really meant to be.... it is the friendship like wad my mum kept for so many years ..... how did she make it last more than 20 years. at times i wonder why is she so lucky .... how is she able to mantain such long durations of friendship...it really leaves me in awe ....

people might not believe it .... but to this certain fren i treated him like a brother . but one of his flaws is that always think that he is right and everyone else on earth is wrong ... and the worse part is that he thinks that the whole world is against him... having him as a fren was a challenge to me ... and for the first few months yes it was wonderful ..... but as time when on ... it started to go haywire ..... something that really moved me into being his frens is the fact that he was there i when i needed someone to talk to badly the most... at that point of time i believed that he was God sent ... yes i will never forget wad he did for me... thanks alot for that ... but towards wad i presume was the end of the friendship it was more of a curse than a blessing .....

yes at times i do regret having this friendship brocken .... was it for the better ? did it makes thing worse ? was this wad i really wanted ? .... was this wad he wanted ? was that the reason why he was a jerk to me ? .... i don knoe and i will never knoe

yes i am not sayin that i am perfect i have my complete set of flaws ....
friendship wad does it actually mean ?
wad is it ?

anyone has an answer.................................

engaged

yesterday was really magical ........
as every other sunday i when to church , after service when to have lunch with ping siong and his mum . this was the first time which to actually allowed his mum to follow us for lunch . and for sure he had his reasons... totally a screwed idea... met pinny at s11 she when to collect the blouses for the engagement later that evening ...

walked to pinny's house is the blistering heat ... and was warmly greeted by the jacky ( the house dog ) he has grown so much since the last time i saw him.... after resting for a while it we walked to the hair saloon my mum, pinni and sumi my cousin had their hair blown . it was really beautiful.

when there by cab ... cant believe that balans weeding suit cost 2000 dollars it looked so so plain ..... i really think it was a waste of money ... the food there was not bad ... the riverside tandoori was wondeful....... after the ceremony was over the dance floor was open ... gosh it was fun ... really really fun i am suja ... was dancing like tomolo ... cant imagine rite... shiok to the max the vodka was really doing its job....

reached home past midnight...... ploped onto my bed
zzzzzzzzzz.....

today woke and and when to school ... julien is sick hope ya recover soon gal . lesson was the usual sucky and mrs wong gave us a worksheet " are you sending the right message " which i would be blogging abt soon... super lame man . met brian after school and had lunch at jp long john sliver.... now back at home ...

anger

What Should I Do If I Get Angry?

Don't lose control if you get angry. Taking it out on others never solves anything. Instead, admit to yourself that you are angry and try to figure out why. What can you do to keep the situation from happening again? If your little sister gets a toy and you don't, it's not OK to break that toy. Maybe you can ask her to share it with you. Or if your science homework is too hard, don't rip up your notebook. Ask your teacher or a parent for help instead.

It helps to talk about your anger with an adult, such as a parent, teacher, or relative. Once you talk about anger, those bad feelings usually start to go away.

Anger Busters
Here are some other things you can do when you start to feel angry:

talk to a friend you can trust
count to 10
get or give a hug
stamp your feet
beat up a pillow because the pillow can't get hurt
draw a picture of your anger
play a video game
run around the outside of the house five times as fast as you can
sing along with the stereo
pull weeds in the garden
think good thoughts (maybe about a fun vacation or your favorite sport)
take a bike ride or go in-line skating

Never getting angry is impossible. Instead, remember that how you act when you're angry can make the situation better or worse. Don't let anger control you. Take charge of it!

read abt anger and stuff really hope this helps someone.....
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today is one of thoese days that i refer to as complete stoning .....
as the words i did lets see absolutly nothing . woke up at about 11 and had carrot cake for breakfast... sending the rest of the day as a "couch potatoe chip"...

father when to bintan for work , mum and sis are in church . i am alone at home ... sufing the net ,chatting and slacking ...

one thing that i have learnt is that . life is not all about going out stayin in at times also can be fun . and relaxing... couching on the sofa can be way more relaxing than walking down at town....

tomoro is balan's wedding bz bz day tomolo ... wishing him all the best ...hope i would be able to do all the rites correctly . the last thing i want is for sumthing to go wrong .......

cant wait for tomorrow .........
life is too short to live the same day twice............

my gosh

so not worth it

and to think abt it i was abt to delete that entry cause i thought i did someting wrong.......
wad ever!!!

any way stop brooding abt it ... i am so over it ...

ar finally the ability to blog in peace again... some people never change and expect them to either ...

it is not that i don wish to say it right to ya face ... never could imagine the toture my ears drums would have to face...... anyway it is nothing new... you have done shit b4

and i had the hope that everything would be alrite once again

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back to my wonderful life
back in the bloggersphere

the past two weeks have been great. i got my focus on and i am now really concentrating on my studies i think i would be able to do well in my exams and everything would be just perfect...

so much has happen over the weeks just too much to blog abt ... i will really start blogging in proper next week on the 11 th of july don ask me why the date... i got wad i wanted to wear for racial harmony day(rhd) ..

today after school kaman folloed me home to borrow a sari to wear for rhd . a beautiful purple saree... showed her the pictures of the perth trip.... brought back fond memories... ar i miss the ppl the life there so much........

when to boon lay mrt to meet kaman mel and kai juan .......... when to little india and then next to china town .... to much happened ............

now back in my haven ....... enjoyin my rest....